Friday, January 07, 2005

Happy New Year!

My long paragraph on updates has been deleted thanks to my mother who picked up the phone while I was online and didn't bother to tell me that she severed the connection, therefore I lost all that I had typed. I have to pray for forgiveness now because of what I have said.

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

Parallels to a Beowulf

Lo, praise of self made fortunes,
Of plastic Barbie dolls, in days of the spoiled,
We have heard that time can stand still.
Oft the square of a White House,
From good ol' Texas, the pilot at war,
President of our great nation. Tis four years his devoted
To a more conservative path:
One with out face-lifts or beauty to boost
One full of faith in our sovereign Lord.
All who saw the light, heard of his majesty
And voted for him; four more years

The foes face filled with Botox,
Carrying a younger John on his back.
Feeding the poor promises of low health care cost.
That erst lacked any solid plan, not a proper earl at all.
So short a while; Liberals adored him,
Turning to Nader, ACLU supporter.

A battle being fought far from home,
But little is it know, that it's close.
Three thousand citizens, murdered at Sadams hands,
And chemical warfare at his power.
The people in shackles, aged and afflicted
Some few with privileges, and others with none
A place where freedom doesn't come cheap
A land filled with profits of oil undeveloped.
Fear of a fate undeserving,
Pleading for God to give mercy.
The younger of the bush liberating,
In the hopes of a free Iraqi nation.
Come warriors willing, to win a war worth wielding.

First Draft -- in progress
(I need more information/more accurate information.)

Update on whats new and happening:

I am teaching second and third grades once a week at my church. Work and school are harder to handle than I expected. Getting in touch with distant friends. i plan to be a pharmacist. I'll tell you when I change my mind.

Jordan on the other hand has new everything. A new job, new car, and just started college. Plans for a small business in t-shirt designing and making are on the way. He's 'The Voice' in his schools newspaper opinion section. He plans to be on the radio with his deep radio voice, and later in live a pastor.

Friday, August 20, 2004

Left Behind...

I feel a little left behind. It's August 20th, only a couple weeks till the big election and I've done nothing towards the cause.

If any of you are familiar with the movie Left Behind then you may know what I'm taking about: When the true believers are taken and everyone else is left behind to be judged on the end of days, how do the people who are left behind feel? A few days ago I felt that way. I was driving to Jordans house when I realized how empty the streets felt. There was practically no one anywhere. I started thinking that maybe God just did it, took his followers and left me behind. I wasn't supposed to be left behind or am I? How do you know for sure if you will make it? I love Jesus Christ, accept that he is my God, and want to take up my cross/ my purpose. The reason why I'm not sure is because I haven't completed my purpose. I don't even know what my purpose is. Getting closer to Jordans house I feared the worse. Nobody would be there. I failed and how was I supposed to go to heaven without the person God gave me to grow in love of God and in love of each other? As I parked into the drive way I breathed a little easier because when I saw Jordan I knew that wasn't the day.

Yeah so I imagined it all in me head and who can blame me, judgment day is very real and I don't feel like I've earned my seat. Some say you don't earn it, all you need is to accept Jesus Christ into your heart. But I know that to truly accept Jesus into my heart I need to bow down and let him control my life for this glory.

I want to end with what I think about the presidential election: Vote for


Friday, August 13, 2004

My apologies

I'm sorry it's been so long since I last posted. How do I expect to get a usual public if I don't posted usually?

Either way, I'm sorry.

Thursday, June 17, 2004

Movie Review:

I saw the movie yesterday and was heart broken in finding out that I was wrong and my youth minister was right. So I asked him if he was going to see the movie and he said, "No." I asked why, and he said something like, "It doesn't stand for Christian beliefs." I was thinking it couldn't be all that bad. The trailers do show that there are some jokes against Jesus Freaks. But after seeing the movie I realized there are many jokes against Christians. Yes, it does teach tolerance but goes far beyond that.
I agree God does love everyone, even homosexuals. But God hates their lifestyle choice. I believe everything is possible with God, even becoming 'ungay.'
Some of the smartest Christian teenagers you would expect to find are supposed to be here in this movie. However, theses Baptist teenagers are misinterpreting Gods plans for them. One thinks she has to sleep with her boyfriend to make him 'ungay.' Another thinks she has to perform an exorcist on a confused(not possessed) girl. For some reason the nicest person or even heroin turns out being the rebel Jewish girl. Obviously, this is not a Christian movie, but is wrapped in Christian phrases said by those assumed to be Christian actors.

Looks like the only thing needing Saving is this movie. If you must watch it, go ahead, but you where warn!

Tuesday, June 15, 2004

The sad news: ACLU threats worked, the tiny cross on the historic county seal will be removed from the County Of Los Angeles, even though it was founded by a priest and is the home of Gods Angels. Anyone wonder why the goddess Pomona gets to stay front and center on a seal when she had nothing to do with any REAL good harvest? Many plan to threaten the Board of Supervisors of the County of Los Angeles to have the cross remain. I myself would gladly sow crosses to any seal that is missing its being.

The Good news: Supreme Court keeps the phrase 'under God' in the Pledge of Allegiance. It's good to know that some people have there hearts open. In fact, I'm glad they tired to remove it and did not succeed, because I have found the new pleasure of saying 'under God' louder then ever.

Tuesday, June 08, 2004

Learn About Abortion Procedures and Risks
Abortion is not just a simple medical procedure. For many women, it is a life changing event with significant physical, emotional, and spiritual consequences. Most women who struggle with past abortions say that they wish they had been told all of the facts about abortion. The following information will help you understand more about abortion procedures and abortion side-effects and risks.

Pregnancy Definitions

  1. Cervix - The bottom opening to the uterus.
  2. Embryo - Human life at its earliest development stage.
  3. Fertilization - Joining of a male sperm and the female egg to form a human embryo.
  4. Fetus - A developing unborn baby with an observable human structure.
  5. Full Term Pregnancy - The stage at about 40 weeks after last menstrual period or 38 weeks after fertilization when the unborn baby is ready for birth.
  6. Last Menstrual Period (LMP) - The date when a woman started her last menstrual period before fertilization. This is the point in time from which the pregnancy and the age of the unborn baby are measured.
  7. Trimester - An interval of three months used to measure three successive stages of pregnancy; first trimester, second trimester, and third trimester.
  8. Uterus - The muscular female organ that contains the developing unborn baby.

Abortion Procedures
Manual Vacuum Aspiration:
within 7 weeks after LMP
This surgical abortion is done early in the pregnancy up until 7 weeks after the woman's last menstrual period. The cervical muscle is stretched with dilators (metal rods) until the opening is wide enough to allow the abortion instruments to pass into the uterus. A hand held syringe is attached to tubing that is inserted into the uterus and the fetus is suctioned out.

Suction Curettage:
within 6 to 14 weeks after LMP
In this procedure, the doctor opens the cervix with a dilator (a metal rod) or laminaria (thin sticks derived from plants and inserted several hours before the procedure). The doctor inserts tubing into the uterus and connects the tubing to a suction machine. The suction pulls the fetus' body apart and out of the uterus. One variation of this procedure is called Dilation and Curettage (D&C). In this method, the doctor may use a curette, a looped-shaped knife, to scrape the fetal parts out of the uterus.

Dilation and Evacuation (D&E):
within 13 to 24 weeks after LMP
This surgical abortion is done during the second trimester of pregnancy. Because the developing fetus doubles in size between the eleventh and twelfth weeks of pregnancy, the body of the fetus is too large to be broken up by suction and will not pass through the suction tubing. In this procedure, the cervix must be opened wider than in a first trimester abortion. This is done by inserting laminaria a day or two before the abortion. After opening the cervix, the doctor pulls out the fetal parts with forceps. The fetus' skull is crushed to ease removal.

Dilation and Extraction (D&X):
from 20 weeks after LMP to full-term
Also known as Partial-birth Abortion, this procedure takes three days. During the first two days, the cervix is dilated and medication is given for cramping. On the third day, the woman receives medication to start labor. After labor begins, the abortion doctor uses ultrasound to locate the baby's legs. Grasping a leg with forceps, the doctor delivers the baby up to the baby's head. Next, scissors are inserted into the base of the skull to create an opening. A suction catheter is placed into the opening to remove the skull contents. The skull collapses and the baby is removed.

RU486, Mifepristone:
within 4 to 7 weeks after LMP
Also known as the Abortion Pill, this medical abortion is used for women who are within 30 to 49 days after their last menstrual period. This procedure usually requires three office visits. The RU 486 or mifepristone pills are given to the woman who returns two days later for a second medication called misprostol. The combination of these medications causes the uterus to expel the fetus.

Immediate Risks of Abortion

Some side effects may occur with induced abortion. These include abdominal pain and cramping, nausea, vomiting, and diarrhea. In most abortions, no serious complications occur. However, complications may happen in as many as 1 out of every 100 early abortions and in about 1 out of every 50 later abortions. Such complications may include:

  • Heavy Bleeding - Some bleeding after abortion is normal. There is, however, a risk of hemorrhage, especially if the uterine artery is torn. When this happens, a blood transfusion may be required.

  • Infection - Bacteria may get into the uterus from an incomplete abortion resulting in infection. A serious infection may lead to persistent fever over several days and extended hospitalization.

  • Incomplete Abortion - Some fetal parts may not be removed by the abortion. Bleeding and infection may occur. RU486 may fail in up to 1 out of every 20 cases.

  • Allergic Reaction to Drugs - An allergic reaction to anesthesia used during abortion surgery may result in convulsions, heart attack and, in extreme cases, death.

  • Tearing of the Cervix - The cervix may be cut or torn by abortion instruments.

  • Scarring of the Uterine Lining - Suction tubing, curettes, and other abortion instruments may cause permanent scarring of the uterine lining.

  • Perforation of the Uterus - The uterus may be punctured or torn by abortion instruments. The risk of this complication increases with the length of the pregnancy. If this occurs, major surgery, including a hysterectomy, may be required.

  • Damage to Internal Organs - When the uterus is punctured or torn, there is also a risk that damage will occur to nearby organs such as the bowel and bladder.

  • Death - In extreme cases, other physical complications from abortion including excessive bleeding, infection, organ damage from a perforated uterus, and adverse reactions to anesthesia may lead to death. This complication is very rare and occurs, on average, in less than 20 cases per year.

Other Risks of Abortion

Abortion and Breast Cancer
Medical experts are still researching and debating the linkage between abortion and breast cancer. However, a 1994 study in the Journal of the National Cancer Institute found: "Among women who had been pregnant at least once, the risk of breast cancer in those who had experienced an induced abortion was 50% higher than among other women." Here are more important facts:

1) Carrying a pregnancy to full term gives protection against breast cancer that cannot be gained if abortion is chosen.
2) Abortion causes a sudden drop in estrogen levels that may make breast cells more open to cancer.
3) Most studies conducted so far show a significant linkage between abortion and breast cancer.

Effect on Future Pregnancy
Scarring or other injury during an abortion may prevent or place at risk future wanted pregnancies. The risk of miscarriage is greater for women who abort their first pregnancy.

Emotional Impact
Some women experience strong negative emotions after abortion. Sometimes this occurs within days and sometimes it happens after many years. This psychological response is known as Post-Abortion Stress (PAS). Several factors that impact the likelihood of Post-Abortion Stress include: the woman's age, the abortion circumstances, the stage of pregnancy at which the abortion occurs, and the woman's religious beliefs.

Post-Abortion Stress Symptoms
» Guilt
» Anger
» Anxiety
» Depression
» Suicidal Thoughts
» Anniversary Grief
» Flashbacks of Abortion
» Sexual Dysfunction
» Relationship Problems
» Eating Disorders
» Alcohol and Drug Abuse
» Psychological Reactions

Spiritual Consequences
People have different understandings of God. Whatever your present beliefs may be, there is a spiritual side to abortion that deserves to be considered. Having an abortion may affect more than just your body and your mind -- it may have an impact on your relationship with God. What is God's desire for you in this situation? How does God see your unborn child? These are important questions to consider.

Explore Your Options

You have the legal right to choose the outcome of your pregnancy. But
real empowerment comes when you find the resources and inner strength necessary to make your best choice. Here are some other options.

Choosing to continue your pregnancy and to parent is very challenging. But with the support of caring people, parenting classes, and other resources, many women find the help they need to make this choice.

You may decide to place your child for adoption. Each year over 50,000 women in America make this choice. This loving decision is often made by women who first thought abortion was their only way out.

Help Is Available

Facing an unplanned pregnancy can seem overwhelming. That is why knowing where to go for help is important. Talk to someone you can trust - your partner, your parents, a pastor, a priest or perhaps a good friend. Also, the caring people at your pregnancy center are available to help you through this difficult time.

To find a pregnancy center near you, call 1-800-395-HELP.

This information provided by FIRSTCHOICE women's centers at